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After all the drama that has happened lately, I have really given so much thought to what I was going to do next. Then I stopped and went to the one place that always gives me peace and direction, My faith. As many of you know I am a witch. In saying that NO I can’t fly a broom although I would love to be able to thumb my nose at the gas stations, I can’t fling fire from my fingertips, though it would come in handy when the pilot light goes out in the stove, nor can I turn you into a toad, now that would be awesome, but the big karma god in the sky would smack me in the face and I would become the fly and well the circle would never end. Being a witch also doesn’t mean I am a passive person, my deity after all is Bridget.

Karma plays such a big role in your life. I believe in reincarnation and your past deeds come with you into this lifetime. It is up to you to fix so that you will not repeat the process the next lifetime. Now your wondering why I am telling you all this. After pray and asking for direction I need to move forward and not forget the past but learn from it.

I will be returning to SL for teaching. I will continue to do the one thing that seems to bring some smiles and joy to others. I will teach dance. As I looked over the past years as a teacher, I have seen so many women come and go in the world of dance, but not one of them have walked away. If I let pressure and drama get to me then what kind of example am I giving others. The negative energy will win over. In this day and age you can reach so many over the internet. Guess that is the beauty of it. I will also begin teaching the basics of witchcraft.

Now before everyone gets their panties in a twist. This will not be fireball throwing, running around naked, poking pins in a voodoo doll (although I do have one and know how to use). This will be about learning about wicca. The basics, A BOS, the sabbaths, elements, altars etc. So you see I will not be adding to the already clogged internet with negative energy, but try and focus on the good out there. Maybe some will be interested, and maybe not. But if I am to return to SL it has to be with a purpose. I have met and become very close friends with many in SL and to them I say thank you for being there when I needed you. For the ones that think I am a spawn from hell, well….if you want to met one I can arrange that easily with a spell, just say the word. I firmly believe in cause and effect. With all that has gone wrong in SL lately I can see if I leave their cause and effect worked. The cause (all the drama) the effect ( me giving up). Now that would never do as so many of you know me. I will not let someone else effect my life. SL is a program and in saying that I want to use it as such. So I will teach and build after all those are the things I use SL for the most.

Looking over everything that I teach I found that so much of it comes down to my faith. If I didn’t have the conviction I have in my heart then none of the past would mean a thing. I tell my students all the time too be themselves. To listen,watch, and speak softly but with your heart. So if you are up for one hell of a ride…. *reaching out my hand to you, fingers extending, waiting for you to take my hand. My green eyes raise to look deeply into yours,  a smile forms as my lips speak only to you…”come let us begin…”

 

Rya

This graduation was one I will definitely not forget. Leading up to it I felt it would never come together. There was so much going on in the class with egos as well as my health issues. I learned a lot from this last class that I will use in the future, that is even if the classes continue. Once the air was cleared all went according to plan and off we went.

I wish to thank the sim BLADES EDGE for hosting the event. From the beginning they gave us full creativity and it was the first time that our graduation looked like a real set and from all the girls and im’s I received everyone loved it.

We were prepared for anything to happen but what happened to us only made us stronger. After I greeted and thanked the sim, I went on to introduce our graduates.

IRIS-Our first dancer to grace the sands tonight, is not only an advanced student but a renowned dance teacher in the Gorean Community. When I received her application to take my advanced classes,I was a nervous teacher. As many know I respect this lady a lot. She is what I want to be when I grow up. Iris will be preforming her fist dance tonight and it is great pleasure that I now ask Iris to take to the sands.. and of course she was top notch as always.

Iris is a well known Gorean Dance teacher. I do look up to her. You saw and felt energy in her I loved all of her dances. The one of Rya’s world really sent chills up my spine because as she did my world she had no idea that the “living props” how they were dancing and her words were what I call “calling the ancestors”

Next:

DANI- She will be preforming her graduation dance tonight. When she first came to the classes I can’t say she was a wallflower but she reminded me of a kitten, that watches everything and when the moment is right, jumps and surprises everyone. She has grown so much and is finding her voice. She has had to fight for what she wants to do and dance is one of them. Ladies and Gentlemen please welcome Dani to the sands.

Now here is where things went to hell for awhile. As soon as she put out her first emote we were griefed and it caused a lot of issues for the sim owner which I continued to say I was sorry all night. It isn’t their fault that a student that didn’t graduate couldn’t be happy for others.

The reason I know who it was because it wasn’t done once but twice and not only to Dani once but twice besides the racial slur filling the entire area but words of filled with cussing and wishing us all a Happy F**** Graduation.” Not only that but the only way someone would type the words that she said only someone with the LM (FYI graduation was way up in the sky and the only way to get to it you had to have a LM for it) also one of her alts was there. BUT here is what she did do right (hat is off to you) YOU made the graduation more fun. Everyone there relaxed and when it died down and we were back Dani had the class and poise to get back up and do her dance again. Not once did it effect her. She is a TRUE dancer.

NEXT:

REINE- Here is another advanced student. She sat her bar in the beginners class. Her graduation dance was one that most beginners would never attempt. She not only awed the crowd but her teacher as well. This class has been hard on her from all sides,but she never failed to be there. She knows how hard I pushed her and for that I am not sorry. She has bloomed and grown even past what I as her teacher ever expected. Tonight she preforms three dances as do all advanced and I along with all of you will be seeing them for the first time. It is with great pride that I ask you Reine to take to the sands.

Of all the graduates she needed an extra trophy because of all her crashes and coming back and doing three great dances. We all were laughing by the last crash even her. The crowd was endeared by her spunk and light spirit. She made me proud and finally I got to hear that famous giggle I have grown to love.

NEXT:

MUNCHKIN- As I sit here and smile,this one is as many know my daughter in SL, I think of her as my RL daughter as well. Never in my wildest dreams did I think she would enjoy my world of dance. I call her Munchkin because it fits her attitude in so many things. The advanced had to preform Master Choices for a grade. One of hers was to dance for her “teacher”. She brought me to tears at the details she put into it and as I was also grading, this one I had to step away from because of how she touched my heart. I never cut her any slack in the classes and I know at times she hated me for it. I feel pushing her let others really “see” her. Tonight it is bittersweet for me to introduce my daughter, one of the lights of my life. Please Sydney to the sands and dance.

She has really grown in dance. I remember a younger Munchkin when I showed her a collaring I was doing and her response to it was it’s ok and remember me going oh boy either I didn’t get through to her or she just isn’t into dance. Well a few years later I eat my words. She made mama proud.

NEXT:

JOLIE- Oh boy now this student at first didn’t say much, by the end of the classes we have developed a bond with her. Ladies and Gentlemen she is also a RL dancers. What makes me feel proud is to have a real life dancer tell me that it makes them feel like they do in real life. Her zest for dance is contagious even for us as teachers. She may never enter a pit or a dance contest which would be a shame and loss. I will hope that she thinks about it and I will be that voice in the back of her head saying “you know you want to do it” Jolie is also a beginners graduation tonight. Please join me in welcoming Jolie to the sands.

This lady did an awesome job. I so want her to go on and take the dance world in SL by storm. This lady never once said she “couldn’t” do anything. NOT ONCE she was a gem to have in class. Her insight to her world was awesome. I hope to be a voice in her head that nags at her to keep going.

What happened next was like walking down memory lane and seeing these two ladies now and remember where they began.

I wanted the audience to see through them what I feel our group of students and teachers are. Here is what I said about both of them.

Tonight I wish for you all to see the embodiment of what my group and classes are about and in saying that I have asked two women that mean the world to me to show you what the Passionate Heart Of Dance is about.

The emerald and ruby in my live are the following Tivi My emerald and Flame the Ruby. They both are enchanting and majestic. Our diamond has and will always be our Sarah our Strength. Tonight I have asked two of the co-owners to dance.

First to dance tonight will be Tivi. I have known Tivi for almost 6 years. We have had our ups and downs but one of the things that binds us is dance. Tivi has been with me from the beginning of all this. In fact she also got me to competing again through her fusion competitions. Tivi has grown more than anyone I know. She is a fierce friend and has a passion for things and certainly a way of expressing them. She finally seems to be happy with herself. What I wish for each and everyone of you to see and feel is her soul. She I feel finally trusts me with her heart and I trust her with mine. She has agreed to do one of my favorite dances that no many knew at the time was very hard for her to do,but one she “had to do” Please welcome not only a long time friend but a co-owner of the Academy our own Tivi.

Letting a woman become who she is is very hard for a lot of us in SL. The worlds do blur no matter what anyone says. This dear friend is also one of the co-owners of the Academy. Meeting her was like looking at myself in the mirror. Our first meeting was hi and her response was I am not here to dance I only came because Maddy asked me too. I was like alrighty now. I can honestly say this woman was a gift from a former Master that I can never repay. We clicked instantly she has been my constant shadow for 2 years now. We have gone through so much together I don’t know how I would get through a day without her. She has become a pure joy to watch when she dances and finally I get to see her as well as she knows how strong she really is. My Flame my partner in crime in other games and yes she got me addicted to the Sims. I love you lady, Ladies and gentlemen please welcome her to the sands.

The evening ended with our group dance. The girls were so excited about it. This was the first time that I required them to be in the same outfit. If they couldn’t afford they were given the money for it and also for the only pose that was required for the dance. They cut loose and you could feel the excitement in the air. It was great. We even strong armed Our Sarah to join us. WOOT US!!!!!

To all my students that passed and are truly passionate about dance and helping others with it. Congratulations. YOU DID IT!!!!!!!

Before I close this post there are a few things left unsaid and also the uncertainty of future classes. As you all have seen from numerous posts as well as our right to respond to them, it has been hard to work up the time and the energy to do more classes. As a teacher I feel I let all the girls down. In RL I am ill and time to me is and always will be precious even on the best of days. I have always been the one to say stand your ground if your right make sure your right but also be willing to hear others. I can’t be that person to stand up all the time. Will there be more classes that is still up in the air. If I said no then the bulling and hurtful things said about me will win. But if they are to continue it will be through the eyes of a much wiser teacher. I never go down without a fight. Time and healing will tell.

To a certain former student you didn’t win no matter what you post or spout. The only thing you did was prove that THE PASSIONATE HEART OF DANCE ACDEMEY is and will always be pure of heart and spirit. Graduation night proved that in more ways than one. They are stronger and the bond is firmly in place. My hope is one day I can come in and see someone stepping into my shoes and I will smile and shake my head smiling,and from the shadows. Whispering “that’s my girls”

I close this post and a bittersweet smile and yes tears in my eyes, for all the girls past and present I leave you with this quote that when I saw reminded me of each of you:

“There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and will be lost.”
― Martha Graham

 

Remember this for me that on the nights I can’t sleep and I look up into the sky? Those stars shinning so bright? they are you all, and you are my memories, my heart, and my passion.

 

Rya

P.S. “now just breathe!!!!!!”

 

The Right to Post

This is in response to you Shel, you see I have nothing to hide and it is with open arms that your post is now on my blog. Yes I copy and pasted what you wrote on my blog. You see one of the things you are so hell bent on is saying everyone is in the wrong. When you attack a person it is only fair that you state all facts NOT just what YOU think was there or only half-truths. You really are a troubled person. I see where you going with this. My friend that took her life really? You are trying so hard to start something with me. This my dear really isn’t a good idea. If you would of attacked me from the beginning instead of around me this may have a different ending. Sadly honey, you do have problems and ones none of us can help with. Read your posts closely. I never once said anything about your sims or your picks. Notecards were brought up( and please be sure to read the following words carefully,) only and I mean only BECAUSE YOU AND YOU ALONE BROUGHT THEM UP. Did you not expect the others to look for those logs to makes sure they were correct and to verify with what you said? I agree you can post what you like but really post the ENTIRE CONVERSATION NOT JUST THE OTHER PERSON’S. Giving ALL the facts Shel sweetheart.

I respect REAL LIFE DOMS oh and fyi? here is where you are mixing RP with RL. In the real world they are called Sir, Miss, or Lady. We don’t address them as “FREE”, also we all don’t go around calling every Dom a Master nor do we go around kneeling at the meer presence of a Dom or Miss in the room. In the REAL WORLD no Real Dom would ever shout at another Dom’s Sub also a REAL Dom knows that they earn respect NOT because of a title they give themselves. Real Doms respect when a sub talks also my dear, HE was a guest only. No one was attacking you, they were talking and your Master interrupted another speaking. That my dear has NOTHING to do with respect, that was rude. Another fact I am not in Gor anymore and my classes are not held on a Gorean sim. You and I differ because I am a real submissive and another fyi? I would of never had to of raise my voice if  YOUR “Master” would of respected my wishes from the beginning, to allow each a turn to speak, and FYI I didn’t tell him to shut up, I started counting another fact you left out was that he told Tivi to shut up. Another tidbit for you. Even if it was a Gorean sim another has no right to tell another Master’s girl what to do. They go through the Master. I can see that this confuses you so felt it was important to stress here that, you are once again mixing a program with reality.

 

Here is something else for you my dear. Our graduation went very well not the outcome you wanted was it? Please DO comment on what I will post about the graduation.

Read your posts dear. You mix RP with class and then have the nerve to attack when we “try” and I use that word loosely to make some sense of what your talking about. If your going to go off half-cocked, take some time to try and calm down so that what you write others will understand.

Now that since you can’t seem to make me lower myself to your level, you have now pulled a card that I am telling you right now has shown the world how low you will stoop. I see you do understand bullying because that cupcake is what your post is. Read it carefully the meaning of bullying is the following: Bullying is unwanted, aggressive behavior among school aged children that involves a real or perceived power imbalance. The behavior is repeated, or has the potential to be repeated, over time. Bullying includes actions such as making threats, spreading rumors, attacking someone physically or verbally, and excluding someone from a group on purpose.I want to thank you for your post to my blog as now I can use it as an example to show others of bullying in it’s highest form. You as usual try and poke the sleeping lion and on this you will get what is coming to you. May not be today or tomorrow but you will have the result come back to you. Once again you don’t have all the facts and again you picked what you wanted to hear. All you have done in saying my friend took her life because of me, shows the world how black of a soul you have.

Here is another little tidbit for you, we all die and yes I will too, but I will be able to leave this world with knowing I haven’t stooped to your level. My spirit is clear and clean.

 

My best advise for you my darling Shel, is to seek some help for your issues, you won’t find it in SL. I do hope you get help and that you find some peace.

 

Rya

Coming Off The High Road

Posted by dingosdicks@hotmail.com on April 14, 2014 at 7:30 AM
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it seems now this topic of class is geting flashed over web pages just to dirty my name once again and prove Rya and Flame and Tivi correct, well lets put this to rest shall we, you be the judge of it all. my reasons for bringing this up to Tivi are after she had told me this

A note here THIS is NOT were the conversation started. I am also adding here that you have left out all your side of what you were saying to Tivi. Selective Posting?

[2014/04/05 18:24] Tiviyah Resident: Do you REALIZE how close you were to failing the class because of your attitude alone?
[2014/04/05 18:24] Tiviyah Resident: I don’t quite think you do.

[2014/04/05 18:24] Tiviyah Resident: None of us wanted to work with you.
[2014/04/05 18:24] Tiviyah Resident: In fact, we were pushing the graduation because so many of us, teahcers and students, are sick of dealing with your drama.
[2014/04/05 18:25] Tiviyah Resident: When we were planning to have another course, the intensive course, YOU are the reason we added the note about drama of any kind will cause you to be removed from that course.
[2014/04/05 18:26] Tiviyah Resident: YOU want to make your bed by being a princess? That’s fine, that’s your right. However, when you’re disliked for your attitude, please don’t come to class whining about “They didn’t clap for me.” Put your big girl panties on and deal with it.
[2014/04/05 18:26] Tiviyah Resident: I don’t think you understand. You do this to yourself.
[2014/04/05 18:27] Tiviyah Resident: You were a colossal bitch during your advanced class. Do you understand that?
[2014/04/05 18:27] Tiviyah Resident: You treated your teachers with disrespect BEFORE any of us “went off” on you.
[2014/04/05 18:27] Tiviyah Resident: You disrespected Rya.
[2014/04/05 18:27] Tiviyah Resident: Which is WHY we went off on you, because we’re very protective of her.
[2014/04/05 18:27] Tiviyah Resident: You don’t respect the classes or what anyone is trying to teach you.
[2014/04/05 18:28] Tiviyah Resident: You’ve been nothing but a selfish, egotistical brat the entire time. You started to show growth towards the end and even Flame and I had to say, “Wow. You know, I think she’s growing.”
[2014/04/05 18:28] Tiviyah Resident: But then to bring up this b.s. in my box again? For real? No. Just no. Not going to fly.
[2014/04/05 18:31] Tiviyah Resident: You’ve not once taken into consideration how any of your actions affect other people. When you pitched your drama fit in the first place and wrote your half-assed apology… you completely disrespected Rya and what she was trying to TEACH you about communication. Instead, you made it about YOU and your own SELFISH attitude.
[2014/04/05 18:35] Tiviyah Resident: Communication is the key.
[2014/04/05 18:36] Tiviyah Resident: However, allow me to make something very clear for you.
[2014/04/05 18:36] Tiviyah Resident: Something that is NOT “through the grapevine.”
[2014/04/05 18:36] Tiviyah Resident: YOU. YOU are the reason that these classes are not continuing.
[2014/04/05 18:36] Tiviyah Resident: Rya is sick… sicker than most of you know.
[2014/04/05 18:36] Tiviyah Resident: And she is under orders to not stress herself out so much.
[2014/04/05 18:37] Tiviyah Resident: And these classes have become nothing but stress for her, ever since YOU showed up and started your drama.
[2014/04/05 18:37] Tiviyah Resident: She doesn’t even want to log IN to SL.
[2014/04/05 18:37] Tiviyah Resident: She has no motivation to do work she normally LOVES doing. And all she says is that, “I just can’t wait for this graduation to be over.”
[2014/04/05 18:38] Tiviyah Resident: However, the discontinuation of the classes after this class is largely inspired by your massive pile of b.s.

now i ask you Rya is it  or is it not stated here that im the reson your sicker?  i think tivi remarks answer that  dont you think. and you want respect from me  after i get that from tivi.
[2014/04/05 19:52] Tiviyah Resident: Rya is being given a copy of this conversation in full.
its nice to know i was never asked if copys can be given out that your girls can just take it apon giving out copys willy nilly isent it Rya,  now shall we move on to flame

 I might add that once again your are READING into a statement something that is not there. It was never stated that YOU are making me sick, but the drama you created was making it worse. I also fail to see what the conversation between you and Tivi has to do with your RESPECTING me or not respecting me?

i might add Flame contacted me not me contact her after she told me when i asked a question in group chat that all i did was  wine and complain, i then closed the chat window and insted of leaving it be, flame contacted me and this is what came of it
 Fact on the above statement about Flame, and I am adding Flame contacted you to say she was sorry in the conversation below. This was in response to the group chat.

[2013/11/17 13:33] Flame (scarletfleur): sorry hun…I was just yanking your leg
[2013/11/17 13:37] ɐ (shellirene): well it was not very funny
[2013/11/17 13:38] ɐ (shellirene): ive not asked any of you for help except when i showed you the dance moves
[2013/11/17 13:38] Flame (scarletfleur): I apologize. You can show it when rya returns if that is what you want.
[2013/11/17 13:39] ɐ (shellirene): and to be honest after what you said im not sure ill even do it now
[2013/11/17 13:39] Flame (scarletfleur): what I said?
[2013/11/17 13:40] Flame (scarletfleur): the pest? I said I was just teasing
[2013/11/17 13:40] ɐ (shellirene): how you said cut out the first part of the song cos it bored you and how my anamaitons dident mach
[2013/11/17 13:40] ɐ (shellirene): match
[2013/11/17 13:40] ɐ (shellirene): really left me feeling good about the whole thing
[2013/11/17 13:41] Flame (scarletfleur): I am sorry, it was the truth…you want to dance a dance that is lousy or good? Rya has looked at mine and critisized them and I dont sulk, I go back and rethink them.
[2013/11/17 13:43] Flame (scarletfleur): If you dont want any critisim never show your dance to anybody, when you get tired of wondering why no one likes them then maybe you will be ready to let others help by giving their opinions, you might not like them and they are just that, their opinions but you need to listen, look and decide.
[2013/11/17 13:45] ɐ (shellirene): oh i see so it sucked
[2013/11/17 13:45] ɐ (shellirene): ok ty
[2013/11/17 13:45] ɐ (shellirene): im closeing this window
[2013/11/17 13:45] Flame (scarletfleur): If you want to pout and feel sorry for yourself thats fine. I told you the parts I liked and the parts I didnt
[2013/11/17 13:45] ɐ (shellirene): i think you said enough on my dance to last me an intire year
[2013/11/17 13:45] Flame (scarletfleur): whatever
[2013/11/17 13:46] Flame (scarletfleur): your interrupting my RP

Here is the COMPLET group chat for that day:
[2013/11/17 13:13] Terrilian Belar: Flame are you around please? i have a question about class.
[2013/11/17 13:15] ScarletFleur: yes
[2013/11/17 13:16] Terrilian Belar: is there anyway we can get the quotes/definations/ homework for time class has been out so we can work on it solo?
[2013/11/17 13:17] ScarletFleur: No, I chcecked ryas avi and her filing system is her own…laughs
[2013/11/17 13:17] ScarletFleur: I couldnt find the stuff…
[2013/11/17 13:18] ScarletFleur: laughs
[2013/11/17 13:18] ScarletFleur: just kick back till after turkey day
[2013/11/17 13:18] Terrilian Belar: ok thanks i thought i would ask
[2013/11/17 13:19] ScarletFleur: no problem, have a good holiday and get ready to dance it off!
[2013/11/17 13:20] Terrilian Belar: is she going to add time at the end to make up for the missed classes or is the 12 weeks engraved in stone 0.o
[2013/11/17 13:20] ScarletFleur: I imagine she will add time…she is responsive to the students needs.
[2013/11/17 13:20] Terrilian Belar: i only have one dance done eep!
[2013/11/17 13:21] Terrilian Belar: ok thanks Flame
[2013/11/17 13:21] ScarletFleur: She wont expect you to know what she hasnt taught ya yet
[2013/11/17 13:21] Terrilian Belar: whew!
[2013/11/17 13:22] Terrilian Belar: ok that works
[2013/11/17 13:22] ScarletFleur: relax…kick back….go hit the pit and dance for the pleasure of it
[2013/11/17 13:22] tuka Katana: remember, she teaches because she loves it – not looking for anyone to fail *smiles
[2013/11/17 13:23] ScarletFleur: yep yep yep
[2013/11/17 13:23] ScarletFleur: you only fail if you dont try
[2013/11/17 13:23] Terrilian Belar: yep ok cool cause i don’t want to miss anything
[2013/11/17 13:24] ScarletFleur: you wont

[2013/11/17 13:26] Shellirene: hmmm
[2013/11/17 13:26] ScarletFleur: nor you pest
[2013/11/17 13:27] Shellirene: pest?
[2013/11/17 13:27] Shellirene: i dident think i was a pest
[2013/11/17 13:27] Shellirene: ive not asked any one really for anything
[2013/11/17 13:27] Shellirene: how am i a pest
[2013/11/17 13:28] ScarletFleur: I was teasing you shell
[2013/11/17 13:29] AnnabelleDeanne: quick question, how many classes have the beginners had so far?
[2013/11/17 13:29] ScarletFleur: sarah? You know???
[2013/11/17 13:31] AnnabelleDeanne: one more question, how many of you use the barr hud?
[2013/11/17 13:31] Terrilian Belar: two
[2013/11/17 13:31] ScarletFleur: me
[2013/11/17 13:31] Terrilian Belar: i do
[2013/11/17 13:32] AnnabelleDeanne: smiles, i need a good guinea pig any volunteers?
[2013/11/17 13:33] Terrilian Belar: Miss Anna thank you so much one of my dances is done for this class
[2013/11/17 13:33] Terrilian Belar: you help on the barre hud command last class was a life saver
[2013/11/17 13:33] Terrilian Belar: your*
[2013/11/17 13:34] AnnabelleDeanne: smiles you are so welcome reine
[2013/11/17 13:36] AnnabelleDeanne: so you want to be my guinea pig reine?
[2013/11/17 13:37] Terrilian Belar: sure that works but i need to walk to the store and get dinner right now
[2013/11/17 13:37] Terrilian Belar: is there a time i can show you?
[2013/11/17 13:37] AnnabelleDeanne: do not need you right this second absolutely
[2013/11/17 13:37] AnnabelleDeanne: love to see it any time
[2013/11/17 13:37] Terrilian Belar: cool

and i might add she had NOT seen the dance emotes. and as you see she used the word lousey. very nice isent it comeing from one of your girls to a student hey Rya, so dont you tell me she never said lousey because she did, and after that i never did bother to message her. it was 6 days before Tivi said  the  horried things, to me that Flame removed me as a friend, not i remove her. but as you have said Flame forgets things and needs to be reminded. now for sarah

 

By the time this ended it is clear Flame was done, she said she was sorry for hurting your feelings. Once again see what you want to see. Here we go again that one word of the ENTIRE conversation and YOU fixate on it.

[2013/12/15 20:53] ɐ (shellirene): sarah
[2013/12/15 20:54] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): yes
[2013/12/15 20:54] ɐ (shellirene): can i ask you some thing
[2013/12/15 20:55] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): sure
[2013/12/15 20:55] ɐ (shellirene): i dont know if i should turn up on tuesday or not
[2013/12/15 20:55] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): it’s your call
[2013/12/15 20:57] ɐ (shellirene): ok then
[2013/12/15 20:58] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): but know that if you don’t show, you’ll probably be kicked out of the classes
[2013/12/15 20:59] ɐ (shellirene): i was not refuring to just 1 class i was refuring to all
[2013/12/15 20:59] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): it’s up to you
[2013/12/15 21:00] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): i can’t decide for ya
[2013/12/15 21:01] ɐ (shellirene): well i dont think ill be mised by not being there as i feel none of yu want me there any way
[2013/12/15 21:01] ɐ (shellirene): so ill think on it over night
[2013/12/15 21:03] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): please don’t include me in that. i’ve already graduated
[2013/12/15 21:06] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): classes should taken for the desire to want to learn its topic, not for the people
[2013/12/15 21:06] ɐ (shellirene): true but you need people in order to dance
[2013/12/15 21:07] ɐ (shellirene): and the sholl i was lead to beleave to be as if 1 large family
[2013/12/15 21:07] ɐ (shellirene): people that stood bye each other
[2013/12/15 21:08] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): you knew the rules of the class
[2013/12/15 21:08] ɐ (shellirene): yes must attend each one bit rl comes first
[2013/12/15 21:08] ɐ (shellirene): if i do call
[2013/12/15 21:08] ɐ (shellirene): re call
[2013/12/15 21:09] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): yes but unless it’s a emergency, you notify rya if you can’t make it
[2013/12/15 21:10] ɐ (shellirene): and do you know what i was doing last week
[2013/12/15 21:10] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): no
[2013/12/15 21:10] ɐ (shellirene): id had maybe 2 if not 3 hours sleep totaly due to my daughter was sick all that niht
[2013/12/15 21:10] ɐ (shellirene): so 1 i was tired as hell
[2013/12/15 21:11] ɐ (shellirene): 2ndly
[2013/12/15 21:11] ɐ (shellirene): i was out from early morning till after 9pm in the cold wind and rain at my rl work
[2013/12/15 21:11] ɐ (shellirene): i was working
[2013/12/15 21:12] ɐ (shellirene): now by the time i rembered the class i was already at work
[2013/12/15 21:12] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): i’m sorry to hear that, but you need to explain that to rya
[2013/12/15 21:12] ɐ (shellirene): so no i did not rush home to get on a computer
[2013/12/15 21:13] ɐ (shellirene): it was 1 class in what way back when you were doing your beginners that i had missed
[2013/12/15 21:13] ɐ (shellirene): 1 class
[2013/12/15 21:13] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): it’s not up to me
[2013/12/15 21:14] ɐ (shellirene): now on the other hand i recall people not turning up due to going to concerts
[2013/12/15 21:14] ɐ (shellirene): and not leting rya know
[2013/12/15 21:14] ɐ (shellirene): and other things
[2013/12/15 21:15] ɐ (shellirene): they did not get treated like they went in and guned you all downn
[2013/12/15 21:15] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): again it’s not up to me
[2013/12/15 21:15] ɐ (shellirene): yet i go to work and i am
[2013/12/15 21:15] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): take it up with rya
[2013/12/15 21:16] ɐ (shellirene): i did her 200 word essay
[2013/12/15 21:16] ɐ (shellirene): she knows
[2013/12/15 21:16] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): okay

Ok I don’t see the issue you had with Sarah. Sarah TOLD you to come to me. You brought up to her about the assignment again YOU didn’t talk to me. Sarah is one of the nicest people I know and she was TELLING YOU to bring it to me. Here I don’t understand why she was muted. It makes no sense.

then i get a im from tivi

 Yes because you wouldn’t let it drop and Sarah wasn’t wanting to deal with it. Sarah and Tivi are close even more so than Flame and myself with Sarah.

[2013/12/15 21:43] Tivi Spiritor (tiviyah): Look, I’m sorry that your delicate sensitivities are offended by Rya calling you out, but the fact of the matter is that it takes all of 60 seconds to open Rya’s box and say, “Shit. I got called in to work. Won’t be there.” And you know what… even after the fact… you may not have appreciated the notice calling you out, but it still wouldn’t take an adult 30 seconds to be like, “Look, I don’t appreciate the notice, but here is what I was doing.” Rya would’ve said, “Ok, thank you for letting me know. You don’t have to do the assignment as you had RL.” But instead, you chose to take your most popular route and play the victim, boo-hoo’ing the drama queen act, and making most of us just sick of the bullshit. So be childish or be an adult. Your decision. Come to classes or don’t come to classes. Your decision. But you owe it to Rya to let her know either way. In a RESPECTFUL manner, because she is first and foremost your TEACHER and a fellow ADULT. Further drama that is traced back to you as the
[2013/12/15 21:43] Tivi Spiritor (tiviyah): source will not be tolerated.
[2013/12/15 21:45] ɐ (shellirene): and who the fuck do you think you are talking to
[2013/12/15 21:46] ɐ (shellirene): why dont you look in the god dam fucking mirror as to haveing respect for a person
[2013/12/16 01:27] Second Life: You have blocked this Resident. Sending a message will automatically unblock them.
 Shakes head. Here I don’t see Tivi cussing at you. You were not leaving Sarah alone. When she states to come to me. Sarah was stressing and so she turned to Tivi period.
so i message sarah back

[2013/12/15 22:08] ɐ (shellirene): and please dont tell the other girls so they im me nd abuse me
[2013/12/15 22:08] ɐ (shellirene): ive already muted tvi for it
[2013/12/15 22:08] ɐ (shellirene): nice to know i tell yu some thing and yu tell tivi and i get aused of all kinds of things and insulted
[2013/12/15 22:09] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): then don’t abuse me
[2013/12/15 22:11] ɐ (shellirene): i was asking you a question not abuseing you
[2013/12/15 22:11] ɐ (shellirene): i did not once swear at you
[2013/12/15 22:12] ɐ (shellirene): or call you names
[2013/12/15 22:12] Sarah Elisabeth Brenham (sarahelisebeth.brenham): you were bitching to me
[2013/12/15 22:12] ɐ (shellirene): or say things to yu that tivi said to me
[2013/12/15 22:12] ɐ (shellirene): you know what sarah thats fine ill mut you to and remove yu from my list since im so bad
[2013/12/15 22:13] ɐ (shellirene): good bye
[2013/12/16 01:36] Second Life: You have blocked this Resident. Sending a message will automatically unblock them.

 You clearly state you did the muting this night.

it was on this night i muted sarah, Tivi and Flame. i felt id had enough of there bs and did not wish to recive any more. now this was just a small amount of  what i recived over the months. as i say if it ws not for Tivi and her remarks id not of said any thing at all. and i do not care if you beleave me or not but the remark to Tivi of why she removed me as friend was ment for some one else, there is  times were you post in wrong windows you dont always follow up with a ” oh wrong window”  and for tivi to go and tell me
This run one sentence was quoted word for word in the class on Monday April 7th. Enough said on that one.
[2014/04/05 18:20] Tiviyah Resident: (Saved Sat Apr 05 18:20:51 2014)If you’ll remember correctly, *you* unfriended *me* when you muted your teachers and were pitching your drama fit awhile back.
[2014/04/05 18:22] Never Fear ﮎℋεℒℒ Is Here (shellirene): yes when you bitched me out first i muted and unfriended you. and you have not helpt me nor offered teach me i only hear from you in class but i un muted you cos rya asked me to
[2014/04/05 18:23] Never Fear ﮎℋεℒℒ Is Here (shellirene): but the main reason i was contacting you was to fnd out about the prims with the props
[2014/04/05 18:23] Never Fear ﮎℋεℒℒ Is Here (shellirene): but i worked that out
[2014/04/05 18:23] Tiviyah Resident: Yes, because a student doesn’t mute her teachers.
[2014/04/05 18:24] Tiviyah Resident: And no dear, I’m not stupid. You contacted me in the way you did to start more drama. You just happened to need a question answered in the process.
[2014/04/05 18:24] Never Fear ﮎℋεℒℒ Is Here (shellirene): and a teacher does not go off on a person like you did to me

and if i rember corectly Rya when the props were being spoken of  the week or so before hand in class Tivi said to leave it with her that she would ask about the prim count, i had also sent her a im before this one that she went off at me in that brought up all of this but as always Tivi never replyed to it.  it must run in the school because you yourself dont reply to my messages or my emails or my skype before you removed me off it, or my note cards, as id sent you a couple while doing the beginners to ask youquestions you  never answered. thinking too would answer a note card but no you never did. and if i recall when we were doing the beginners you always said you check your emails daily and you always get them, and that your emails were the safest and best way to get word to you un like sl as you were not always on line to respond right away but since you look and check your emails then that was the best way to contact you. odd you got every one elses but mine isent it Rya, now i do  state very strongly you said it yourself i had passed and was to graduate as my danceing was to good not to. you then turn around and say im not going to graduate due to i cant let go of the past. thats not a good enough reson to with hold a graduation  reguarding a danceing course from some one thats worked hard and spent time and monney  in to to finish. my past has nothing to do with dance, and if you refuse to allow me to dance fine i know i never failed it, but you need to do the correct thing and at lest give me my graduation certifacate. send it though to my email you know what it is as you recived all my music for the graduation. eather way you owe me that much since i passed on my dance skill alone. but are you  women and big enough to do that? are you that much of a teacher you will do that? no i dont think you are, i dont think ill ever see it. because your not that type to give out some thing i earned, and passed.   now for every one thats read this you be the judge. as i say this is only some of it not all of it. am i wrong for standing up for myself? no i dont think i am. would you allow yourself to be spoken to in the manner i was and you stay silent? no i dont think you would if you could your a much better person than i am. because i could not.
The first part of this states Tivi said leave it to her. Fact Sydney works there and stated she would find out. The part about emails. Facepalms Shell how many times did I tell you I didn’t get it to please resend this went as well to Iris. Good grief woman please if your going to speak for me get it RIGHT.
The correct thing would have been to tell you to leave long ago, but you see here is a big difference between you and I. I give people a second chance and in hoping maybe explaining it another way will help. This time I was very wrong.

I owe you nothing because you failed the group dance area and therefore brought you C to a D. I state again your FINAL IS the graduation.

There is nothing wrong in speaking up as long as you let others finish what they are saying and do it with respect and a calm voice. None of which you do.

I NEVER had your skype as far as removing a person from my SKYPE you have to be on it first. Should I have all the people that are on my SKYPE tell you such. Please Shell what is your problem? You are still not seeing the whole picture, you ARE in FACT taking sentences apart and using pieces.
I am a bigger woman than you. Want to know why? When I addressed the issues I did it with respect and I never did name calling or belittle another. I am an adult and being such means you have to act like one.

For the last time let me make this perfectly clear I NEVER TOLD YOU TO SPENT MONEY.
You passed to go on to graduation THAT IS YOUR FINAL.

The part about Flame, Shell you do have a chip on your shoulder big time. She said she was sorry for hurting your feelings but again Shell you refused to hear it. IN FACT I see it twice in that conversation.

 

[2013/11/17 13:38] Flame (scarletfleur): I apologize. You can show it when rya returns if that is what you want.

[2013/11/17 13:41] Flame (scarletfleur): I am sorry, it was the truth…you want to dance a dance that is lousy or good?

This one is good she used the word lousy. Yes she did but again that is the only word you picked out of the sentence. Here is the complete sentences from your blog:

[2013/11/17 13:41] Flame (scarletfleur): I am sorry, it was the truth…you want to dance a dance that is lousy or good? Rya has looked at mine and critisized them and I dont sulk, I go back and rethink them.
[2013/11/17 13:43] Flame (scarletfleur): If you dont want any critisim never show your dance to anybody, when you get tired of wondering why no one likes them then maybe you will be ready to let others help by giving their opinions, you might not like them and they are just that, their opinions but you need to listen, look and decide.

You picked one word from two sentences and fixated on it.

THIS is what I was talking about you can’t or won’t let anything go. Fact you removed them all the same night. I know because I was in SKPYE with them all. Oh and before you think the call was about you it wasn’t it was about lessons, but again you will twist it to fit your needs.

I am going to post that so called apology now. Why? You may ask? let readers see it for what it really was. Yes you missed the class and yes you were called out in group. Now I am not going to correct the spelling because I may be accused of tampering with it so here it is the way I received it.

As i get home and finaly sit down at 9.27pm, i log in to see any off line messages and see the group notice, of an apolagy im ment to write to the intire class of why i was not there today, of no less than 200 words, yes i know i should of been at class after all its the 1st one ive ever missed, and shame on me hw dare i miss class but insted i decided to go to work, yes from 9.30 am i went to work and did not finish till 15 minets ago. so un careing of me to be at work and earn monney to feed my family and pay bills, insted of being at dance class, and yes its totaly my fult i made that desision, insted i should of just told my boss to shove her job up her ass and tell her im going on the internet insted, so for going to work im sorry to the intire class, for earning monney to live on im sorry to the intire class, for being up all night just about with a sick daughter throwing up and finialy after 3 hours of sleep after ive goten her settled so she is feeling better, im sorry for not stoping and droping every thing to get on and say why i was not able to be here for class, i should know better than to put myself first and my daughter rather than you all that waited in class. i sit here almost falling asleep but insted of going to bed i put my health and self last and you all 1st by staying up and writing this essay, as i wont have time to do it tomorrow as my whell fell off and im still behind in my work, or id still be out working till after midnight.. so once more please find it in your hearts to forgive a person for puting her rl job to suport her family first, insted of being on the internet, this wont happen again as i will tell my boss she and her job will just hve to wait as your all waiting for me in class, if i get fired well so be it, at lest you wont all be waitng for me in class. and if my daughter gets sick again and im almost dead and passed out from lack of sleep, welll ill put that off as well and just turn up. as no ones more in portent than you all and class. my rl can always be put on hold but you all cant, but its so reasureing to know others are excused when rl comes into it, yet im out bustingmy ass working in the wind and friking cold and the rain, trying to get monney to live on and put food in the house, yet i have to write a 200 word essay. and i do note strongly this is the very 1st time ive ever missed a class. so now you all know why i was not there, i was at work. now i dont know how many words are in this, im not even going to try and count them, if this seems to come across as being bitchy then so be it, im tired, my back is in pain ive had hardly any sleep, and i got to write this because i was at work. i was not on line avoiding any of you. i was off line for a reason RL nothing more and nothing less. now yo can post this well i wont say were you can post this, but you can put it on what ever you wish to put it on in or out of class. for every one in class nd every tom dick and harry to read. i bid you all a good night as i turn off my computer and fall into bed, to start work yet again to try and catch up what i could not finish and hope my boss is not to pissed about me un able to finih the job on time.
shellirene

Now for the facts
1.You stated the night before “see you tomorrow night”
2.We waited 30 minutes to start class thinking you would come.
3.You state you were halfway to work and wasn’t going to come back to let me know.
4.RL comes first I understand
5.When you came back and saw the group message you did the assignment
6.If you would of come to me right away instead of being childish and writing that assignment you would of never had to of written it in the first place FACT that I had a talk with you about it. Way after it was posted to the class.

7.Instead of talking to me you went and started things with all the students in the class. If you don’t believe me you posted you and Sarah’s conversation where you go on about it.
8.Fact I gave you 3 weeks to approach me, when the drama was raising I made the decision to post it in front of the group to see, as I stated I would do in the beginning. I gave you 3 weeks to talk to me and you didn’t.
9.This is no apology this was a being rude and disrespectful in it’s highest form. You not only attacked me but the whole class.

One thing you will need to remember Shell is this, I am an adult I treat children the way they are suppose to be treated. Adults the same way. Putting this to bed?, please you just posted so we would see it and think you got the last word. Well aren’t you just one special snowflake.

Now for this post you put in your blog.

hey Flame why don’t you go grab yourself a chainsaw and shove it between your thighs and turn it on full. you could not even read out the correct note card, you tell free what to do, you feel your above even one else. you and tivi are the reason people kill themselves, from the massive bullying. and the funny thing is you cant fail me on my dancing skills only the fact you all claim I cant let go of the past, yet you bring up 3 different sims I was part of as a reason to make me look bad, you tell free that im that stupid I cant learn, or listen or respect in class, well have you seen my certifacats cunt. they call your ideas nothing but lies. can you show the same thing I have that you have done? no I bet you cant.so shut the fuck up cunt. but you never could take being told what to do very well could you bitch. and what a joke you a teacher??? hahaha fucking haha. I don’t recall once you steped in to teach us when rya said no class due to she would not be on. fucking jokes on you and tivi and rya. cos you all do jack shit nothing but put people down and your all well known for it to. oh and one other thing to reine never went to rya to learn to dance she only went there to learn how to use a hud. and guess what you guys never tought her what she went to you for she went to some one else to learn, so the jokes again on all of you. of corse reine wont admt to what she told me when she said rya even begged her to vote me out. cos reine knows she to will be kicked out and un able to graduate for her certifact. which infact you lot owe me mine since you never allowed me to get it for my dancing only for not letting go of the past, when that has nothing to do with the school of dance or my abilty, and since I have it in writing you had no choice but to pass me as my dancing skills had improved so much, you cant now say I don’t get it for the reason of not letting the past go when it was YOU that brought up 3 past sims and other stuff to make me look bad. I noticed you all avoided the voting issue and the rest of what tivi told me, only brought up what you wanted to be totly looked apon and acted on. and if yo think ill waiste my time to go look at your blog you got hot rocks not only in your fucked up head but up your cunt to.

This is the part I don’t understand why in all the reasons to state something THIS had anything to do with the Passionate Heart of Dance. All this shows to me is what issues you may very well have going on in your life.
Narcissism is the pursuit of gratification from vanity, or egotistic admiration of one’s own physical or mental attributes, that derive from arrogant pride. Now that statement I can understand and seems to fit this whole set of conversation as well as your actions. Maybe if you would of come to me and told me you were a Narcissist I could of worked with it and at least I would of known how to teach you. This statement you are making makes me wonder about your mental health, again full of cussing as well as it appears you have MAJOR issues with Flame.
Now I will address this part of the statement: you feel your above even one else. you and tivi are the reason people kill themselves, from the massive bullying.

Now the only reason and I mean the only reason you said that was for the shock value and you knew it would get a raise out of Tivi and I.
You haven’t a clue about bullying and the difference is they didn’t constantly look for you. This is the definition of bullying:

Bullying is unwanted, aggressive behavior among school aged children that involves a real or perceived power imbalance. The behavior is repeated, or has the potential to be repeated, over time. Bullying includes actions such as making threats, spreading rumors, attacking someone physically or verbally, and excluding someone from a group on purpose. As I see it you started each and everyone of those conversations and not one of them bullied you. The statement that they are the reason people kill themselves? This was pure out and out a way to twist a statement to get at Tivi and I. Bullying isn’t taken lightly. Fact Tivi was part of a fund drive for such a thing, she put it together so that it worked with the National Bullying Campaign going on in RL. I will let her speak on that if she so chooses. I was asked to be a vendor and jumped at the chance to try and bring some light to the matter. You said that ONLY and I mean ONLY because of your information that was given as an example to NOT let happen. I lost someone very dear to me and this you KNOW so did Tivi. How dare you? Cause you think no one will call you on it? Fact I am calling you on it now. To sink so low as to place a statement like that to anyone I mean anyone. I am also stating when you left that class Monday night your parting words were “I hope you all die you fucking mother fuckers” Those my dear are your words.

It is one thing to be self-righteous and full of yourself another to point fingers and blame the whole world for your issues. Get your facts straight before opening that mouth of yours. I was nice and respectful in replying to your blog but I see now that only shoving everything back in your ball court is the only way to handle you. I have NEVER been so disappointed with the outcome of this. I was raised to respect people and their differences. It is clear you were never taught those things. Is that bullying I think not that is calling as I see it.

In closing this is the nicest I will be to you Shell. I am calm but clearly I do see what posting this will do, I am adding gasoline to the fire but,

FRANKLY MY DEAR I DON’T GIVE A DAMN

RYA

Finally the Teacher speaks

What is great about living in the US of A is that we have the first amendment, in that we have the freedom of speech and have the right to speak our minds and write what is on our minds. It is also the right to respond to what is written about us.

First and foremost I wish to tell my students that as a teacher, I am truly sorry that they have been put through all this drama. I have done a lot of soul searching before placing this in my blog along with any decision I make re guarding my classes. This past weekend everything came to a head, and instead of working on the music for your graduation, time had to be spent addressing drama, that as a teacher I thought was long gone and had been worked out.

I had one of the teachers post a notice in the group for the Monday class. Once this was done I did a lot of soul searching again and decided my next course of action. I am not a person to sit in a class and say to them all “I have been told etc. but I can’t give names.” This time it was overdue to place everything on the table. I was informed that “more than one of my students wanted to tell me to shove my classes up my ass” and yes that is a quote.

I could take the post on Shel’s Blog and go line for line and explain all but what is the point. Shell you will only see what you want to see. I will address a few of them as they are about the class, your RP no, class issues yes. Yes I had Tivi send out the notice and yes both Flame and her do so when I ask them too. FYI it is one of their duties as a co-owner.

The way you portray it, I don’t care. I was hardly there and where is the respect there? Really Shell. At least you all got a notice. I will not go into all my health issues, the many times I was drugged up and had to drag myself to the PC for a class because I felt I was letting you all down, but if you want to feel you want to attack that is fine. You failed to mention that I did sit down with you when you were “upset” about what Flame said to you and I also spent the day explaining to you just as Flame did that she was trying to help you NOT cut you down. You took the comments apart and only used what YOU thought YOU heard.

You came to me one time and one time only about help. I did say I would be on sometime that week and we could talk. NO I didn’t show because I was very ill to the point, (I will not go into details here) but it was impossible for me to get out of my bed. When I finally was able to make it to the PC I DID im you and say I was sorry but I was just too sick. Your response was no worries.

You also stated about numbers, this is a joke Shell as if I ever cared about numbers some of my classes would have been gone long ago. I don’t do the classes for numbers, I do the classes because I used to enjoy them. PERIOD. Yes they start out large and the go down in size. That has nothing to do with me, it has to do with when they find out they have to work they want no part of it. No one drives them off. The classes are work.

Now as far as your RP goes here is where I draw a line. What does that have to do with dance class? You said it, in fact I state that your RP has no room in my class but yet when I asked everyone about a fellow students outfit and called on you, you lashed out at her and it was because of your personal issues with her NOT the dance class. That night I called you on that very issue. Said it will not happen again to leave personal issues at the door. If it happened again I would remove you. As you found out Monday night there was no VOTE done and I never begged anyone to vote you out. I NEVER assign beginners to be over anyone.

Yes this was all brought out on Monday April 7th 2014 class. The reason because the class had become unpleasant to be in for myself and your fellow students, and because it didn’t seem to matter what I tried to tell you it didn’t get through. Your the one that wanted to mix RP with dance class. You list of concerns were addressed as well as I opened the floor to let each and everyone of you to speak your mind. You stated that more than one wanted to tell me to shove it. This was the time to air it all and if that was the case I could finish up this class and move forward without any hard feelings.

Now about me “hiding my classes” I have NEVER hidden my classes. I have NEVER been kicked out of anywhere. You will believe what you want but this post is about facts. So dear readers here are the following. When asked to teach my classes somewhere I have 3 conditions 1. voice as I type all day at my real life job I need to give my hands a break and because as many people that know me can tell you. My text comes across as I am a bitch. 2. That my students can come dressed the way they want as long as their bits and bobs are covered. As the class is OOC. 3. That I have access to a stream when I have my classes. Again Shel you will believe what you want to believe but as I will continue to state in this post, this is about facts. I have moved my classes due to one of those conditions not being met. My conditions are set because of the students.

Shel you state no one to include myself answered your questions or email etc. Fact anytime you had a question in class I stopped and let you ask and we answered for you. Now most time you didn’t like the answers and I would state “does that answer your question?” You would state “yes”. You also state you went to Tivi and Flame and they never answered your questions. I have also stated that both have other responsibilities in SL and in fact Tivi has an answering machine that she checks. All of this you state is because they don’t like you. Here is some facts for you Shel. I haven’t “liked” a few of my students on a personal level but never once have I let that effect how I teach them. Personal issues stay outside the class.

You also state that you spend endless hours on writing dances, making props, getting costumes, animations. Fact I require you NOT to buy anything any huds,animations, costumes or props are your own doing. Fact in the beginning I flat out TELL you NOT to buy anything. Another fact this class is doing a group dance for graduation, when told you would all need the same outfit and the one animation, I asked who needed help with the funds to get. Fact I gave money to any that couldn’t afford or needed. Fact I gave you the money for both. Here is another fact about “buying” I state the following there is no need for a prop for a dance because “YOUR ARE THE BEST PROP”. To have a prop is a bonus BUT is never required.

The advanced class has a lot of work to include for their graduation they are to do three styles of dance. 1. A freestyle (where anything goes)
2.A gorean dance ( as I teach the different dances and styles)
3.My World ( this isn’t about me it is about how they listen and their take on my world. As I state in class if you can dance someone else’s world and pull it off you have Mastered the hardest thing in dance)
Upon doing these dances in front of a crowd THEN AND ONLY THEN have they completed the course.

Now the comment about Reine not having her dances done for graduation. Graduation is April 27th and until that date she has all the time she wants. Fact is, it isn’t your business what is and not done by other students, the only person you had to worry about was yourself. What Reine puts in her dance isn’t your concern but hers. You lashed out at her and you also state she was the one that said all these things about the group. Fact, when asked Reine owned up to what SHE did say. Fact, you refused to hear her. Another fact you included her in your list of my so called “girls”. Also you included Sarah (which most of the class knows she stepped away from the classes. Mainly in part Sarah doesn’t take part in drama and when it starts to effect her, she has every right to do what is best for her) Fact, Reine is an advanced student not a co-owner of the group nor a teacher. You also included Dani’s name but when faced with your list in class and Dani was asked she answered and again you didn’t hear nor did you read what she said.

Fact I have NEVER berated nor do I make students feel bad. I am there to teach and make you better. If a dance needs works it needs work, it has nothing to do with a personal feeling. If I find something I don’t like in your dance, I could simply tell you that it sucks and to start the whole thing over, in front of you and the whole class… instead, I like to be tactful and keep your feelings in mind. I ALSO try hard to find something I like, to let you know where your strengths are.

Fact in my class you are graded in many areas NOT just dance. If I tell you in advance what you are going to be graded on besides dance you all would get A’s because you have foreknowledge. The fact that your graded on behavior says a lot about the person as the core meaning of this class and group is “passion and the overwhelming feeling of wanting to pay it forward” The following areas are what you were also graded on:
Overall Course Grade:

— Class Attendance Grade:
— Classroom Behavior Grade:
— Classroom Assignments Grade:

— First Teacher’s Choice Grade:

— Wordless Teacher’s Choice Grade:

— First Mistress’s Choice Grade:
— Second Master’s Choice Grade:
— Third Master’s Choice Grade:

Each area is graded to include the final Group dance and the dances for graduation
—Group Dance Grade (5 points)
— Following Directions (1 point)
—Camaraderie (1 point)
— Staying on Task (1 point)
—General Participation (1 point)
—Working “For the Good of the Group” (1 point)

Now for what you see as hurtful words. Fact Tivi stuck to what you presented her with. Fact if you approach a person with a question do so. A statement opening a person’s im box of “Is there a reason you unfriended me?” This will always put a person receiving it in a defensive mode. You also state you only wanted to ask about the prop. When in fact that is what you should of done instead of the statement you made. It is called approaching people the way you want to be approached.

Now for a few clear facts.

1.My class is free
2.I make no one attend that doesn’t WANT to be there.
3.I give out free items to help them along the way and to SEE if this is something they WANT to do.
4.I have co-owners for the group. They have been through all the classes and I trust their judgment when it comes to other areas of the group. Which I might add here the students haven’t a clue as to the work they do behind the scenes. They have known me for years in SL and RL, and have proven they can handle the jobs I give them as well as make sure no one is being overlooked.
5.This go round I became very sick. I had to cancel classes here and there. I DID feel very bad about each one that had to be canceled.
6.I have given my real life email to everyone and until this last asking for music, I still couldn’t receive email from two of my students, which I told them about and asked to resend. Finally the emails came and I also informed them I had received them. This is fact. Once I receive an email from a student I add them to my contacts so that they no longer go to spam. Yes I even check my spam.
7.No, the co-owners don’t teach the class because to be frank “they don’t want to teach it” Tivi’s response is “I don’t teach my teacher teaches” Flames “I will do anything you ask just don’t ask me to teach” Co-owners have many jobs to include sending out notices. That is just one of the tasks they have. Being a co-owner comes with a lot of responsibly. I also feel whom and what I assign to the co-owners is my business NOT the students.
8.Whom I spend my online time with is my business and I am not sorry about that. The classes were on Monday and Tuesdays. That does not mean I spend the entire time in the class, only the hours it is set for.
9.When I am online there is nothing preventing you from iming me. I have always answered all ims.
10.I am not a mind reader nor do I say things I don’t mean. I expect to be respected as I try my best to respect all of you.

In closing I am putting this to bed. Again I will say I am sorry to the students that I tried to hold out that this was a passing thing and that egos would calm down. But drama ruins so much and really uncalled for when talking to the teacher would of solved so much. In this Shel you gave me no credit and just pointed fingers. That is the biggest disrespect anyone can show another person.

I will continue to watch over the students but upon graduation I am leaving SL. I don’t understand why in a program so many feel it can be a free for all. No one has run me off I am just tired of trying to be honest and real and most are only in it to game. Remember this dear readers SL is a program NOT a game. It is a social chat room acting like an adult and considering others before you speak is not only the right thing to do but the respectful thing to do.

For all my students past and present when I say the following and it comes from my heart. Never stop dancing, I will always be there that nagging voice in the back of your head saying “breathe you got this”. I have enjoyed each of you that came to the classes to learn and enrich my life. For that I can’t thank you enough. I always tell you these classes are about you and finding the real YOU. Thank you for sharing YOU with me.

Rya

Graduation Oct. 6,2013

How to begin this one? Only one word says it all WOW!!

This was to be a bittersweet graduation for me, as not only did my advance students graduate but I also felt it was time to move on. Not once did I express to the students that the classes would be moved this day. After all it was about them and their time to shine, and shine they did!!. Another first for me was that this was the first time in all the classes that I got to enjoy the advanced dances right along with the crowd. Most times I already have seen them and know what is going to happen, this time all I knew was the name of their songs. I cried,smiled,was angry and just plain amazed.

I tell my students all the time, it is they that make this worth what I do in SL. So many times they don’t see the beauty that they have and to see it come out in dance makes me feel so very proud of them. I had four beginner’s (out of a class that started with nineteen) They stuck with it and became beautiful flowers. From Shellirene, SirLisbeth, Terrilian, and of course my Munchkin. Each one of them danced from their hearts and you could see it as they graced the sands. This class really dug deep inside themselves and trust me you missed one hell of a show.

This also was the first time that I had the advance students graduate along side the beginners. There is a joke in the classes there are the advanced and then there are the old farts. Smiling as I read this. My advanced that graduated were: Flame, wow what an awesome firebird she was able to display. As well show that as a woman we do live and learn and we grow, no matter what is put at our feet. She said she jumped around like a chicken but trust me no one saw it that way. Ms. Anna the memories that she stirred in me. The pure love one has for a parent. Azuri OMG this one. To see the levels she has grown going out there and exposing herself for you all to see. I cried and was smiling at the same time. Tivi again just wow, she had picked as one of her dances to “dance My World” She has no idea how she touched me and the tears that wouldn’t stop flowing with her display of my craft and my soul and my pain. Last but never least was our Sarah. Her freestyle, where to begin. When she walked out to the sands never would I of guessed she was going to show her real world. The crowd went silent when she produced a wheelchair. I am not too sure about this but I do know one thing. Only the students that are close to her and myself knew this was about her real life. The impact of her dance was something I wish the world could see. Each of my students are unique and very special. Each has hurdles in their real life and let me tell you, they don’t want your pity. They do want you to understand they are human with feelings. When she danced that freestyle she has no idea how she touched each one of us, and how each one of us were in the shadows watching and thinking of the strength it took to display that.

The advanced also danced two dances and I told them they could pick two of three that were assigned for the course. One thing that never escapes a teacher is the rumors that go around. It is rumored that I don’t teach true Gorean Dance. On this I say “want to bet?” The women did freestyle,My world and Gorean and from where I was standing not one of the Gorean dances came under reticule. In fact they were received very very well. Was I sitting here busting with pride you had better believe it! This was given to me by my former Master when I sat one night wondering if in fact I don’t teach Gorean Dance:

“There is no standardization, or little standardization, for better or for worse, in Gorean slave dance. Not only can the dances differ from city to city, from town to town, and even from tavern to tavern, but they are likely to differ, too, from girl to girl. This is because each girl, in her own way, brings the nature of her own body, her own dispositions, her own sensuality and needs, her own personality, to the dance. For the woman, slave dance is a uniquely personal and creative art form. Too, of course, it provides her with a wondrous modality for deeply intimate self expression.”
Guardsman of Gor, page 260

Once I read that I was very sure of what I teach. I teach passion,heart,needs,sensuality and above all else a woman’s desire to be herself. So to all my students you have done your teacher very very proud.

The last dance of the night was our group dance. I have never had so much fun in doing. My granddaughter has to take the credit for it it was “ROAR’ by Katie Perry. She was singing to it one day and I began to tap my foot. Asked the song and she told me. From there the idea formed to have all my students dance with me. Emily (granddaughter’s name or Puss as the students have come to know her by) sat with me one night on my build pad and was laughing singing and smiling ear to ear when she saw some of her favorite ladies there. Her Ms. Flame, Ms. Tivi, and Ms. Sarah. As they talked to her we began to put the dance together. What ended up to be a crowd stopping wooting join in from all that attended the graduation. The Icing on the cake was Tivi was able to get it taped for us. The end is didicated to Emily. The ladies have no idea how she danced around the room singing and smiling ear to ear saying “Oma they did that for me?”

So as I bring this post to a close, for all that read. Remember this: it isn’t the things in life that cost money that make people love you but the little things that come from the heart that leave the impression of your soul on others. To my students “LET ME HEAR YOUR ROAR!!!” Here is the awesome link if you don’t believe me: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LPnaPQYMgqM

To all my students past and present. Once again you have left your imprint on my heart

Graduation June 2,2013

The day started out pretty good with the usual up and downs when planning a graduation. What unfolded later was one of the priceless things that I will have the pleasure of never forgetting. As you know I teach dance and have always felt that this type of expression is so important. As I sat and talked to the girls they waited for the night to begin, I reflected back on when they all began the class. This class had so many pitfalls and lots of ups and downs. I started out this time around with 32 students and ended up with 6 graduating. These six should be very proud of themselves. They stuck it out through many moves of the class, watching a fellow student go through a nightmare that any dancer would never want to go through. They all placed their faith in me that all would be ok. You see they are important to me and I do see them more than just avatars. I have gotten to know them. Each so unique each so different.

The growing pains they have gone through and all in the name of dance. One of the things they don’t see that I do is that through this process they have grown and bonded with others in SL. They have made friendships that will last a very long time. They care about each other and what happens.If one is hurting they all run to see what they can do to help. A lot of you will laugh cause you see it as “just online” sadly for some of you, you will never take that first step to meet the ones you know in SL. I can stand on this soapbox because I have met and continue to try and meet as many of them as I can, because they are real. Doesn’t take tons of money just the desire to meet in the middle.

The girls and I use “girls” should use women because that is what each and everyone of them are. The lives these women have and the strength that they have. I have watched some of the many things that hurt them, make them laugh, make them mad. Guess what folks they are human and so very real.

My list of students is very long and to see some of my first students come to the graduation brought tears to my eyes. To think that they are for the most part still dancing,still expressing themselves. That my friends is priceless. But I tend to get off topic so onto that night.

The advanced class worked so hard on a dance for the beginners and it was started off with a mess of the music. Laughing here now that is SL for you. Finally it came together and the women of the advanced class danced to their fellow classmates that were just graduating. Each had a message for them and when done I was pleased to see and hear “omg, wow” from the graduates. My hat is off to Flame, Foxie, Gracie, and Sarah what gems these woman are. Countless nights of laughs, tears, anger we have seen and been through it all. They came together as a team as a group of dancers loving to dance for others. Snickering as I got words of “omg will we ever be able to do that?”

Let me start by saying alittle about each that graduated. First up was Devine these are the words I used for her:

Our First graduate is Devine, smiling as I say her name. This one came to the classes I think at first to see what all the fuss was about, she once told me “she just followed the green dots.” Laughing at the thought. She has grown and really surprised me many times. Extending a hand to you and smiling softly “Devine the sands are yours”.

She did have me worried as her song she had was one of the longest for a first time dancer. I didn’t want her to fail nor back out. She had issues with her hud and as her teacher I had to remain calm but I know it ticked her off to no end. When she danced for the first time in front of a large crowd (did I mention 62+ avatars all there to see the girls) it was like she had been doing for years. Her dance had so improved over the period of time. Animations great the choice of music and words spot on. I sat and watched and cried because I felt her pain I felt the courage she had and knew this came from a place in her heart that she needed everyone to see. I don’t know if she will continue in dance but I do know she gave it her all in my classes and I wanted her to know that I was so proud of her that she did it!.

Second was Azuri here is what I said about her:

Next to enter the sands is Azuri. This graduate told me that “she felt dance was for ninny’s” Not until she decided to come to the dance classes did we begin to change her mind. Azuri I am glad that you were open-minded enough to see this through. Motioning to her enter the sands and pull everyone here into your world.

This one as I sit here snickering wow. She was so worried about everything that could happen and none of us could answer all the questions of “what if”. She got upset many times but not until she danced did she understand what I and her fellow classmates were trying to tell her. What helped Azuri calm down and see that this was something she wanted to do no matter what, was the night before she saw an advanced student Flame go through a total nightmare when dancing. She told me that she saw that no matter what if this is what is in your heart you will dust yourself off and continue. I am glad (not for Flame but for Azuri) that she got to see the desire of a dancer no matter what happens “I have to dance this” She was in ims with me as she danced telling me what was happening and what was going wrong. My words to her were stop and focus continue. She did and no one noticed. As she sat down she was right where I wanted her to be excited crying shaking and wanting to do again.

Third was Hlinn and the following is what I said about her:

Next up our third graduate Hlinn. She came into SL and seems right to my classes, not only did she want to learn to dance but she spent countless hours catching up with the rest of the class. She cried and ranted when things wouldn’t go in place and now today you would never know it. Moving back to my pillow and looking over to you. Hlinn command the sands!

This lady worked so hard to catch up and she was only behind 3 classes. Hlinn is a dancer in RL and so many of the small lessons I teach she already understood. She worked so hard on her dance. I wanted her to feel the same way she does in RL after she dances. She said close and for that I am thankful. She danced from the heart and with her permission I am posting her dance:

Hlinn: Little Lost Girl:

I stand still as desire wells up from deep within me,, my heart beats faster, as hope wells up that I might unlock what lies deep inside… To take hold of the child within and let her free, to see the world with broad strokes, not the narrow vision I have now. I I want with all of my being to paint the world and make new visions manifest as I imagine them into being.

I want to run, to skip, to turn in circles and let my laughter resonate to the rafters, to see the sun shine on the water and make rainbows scintillate over the horizon. I want my hair to flow out from my body in that way that only little girl hair does…Bounce about and bring my joy into being. I want to laugh and laugh and laugh some more.

I want to cry… I want to be able to cry when I am hurt, not keep it locked up inside’ til I am alone or it is dark and it is safe for the tears to flow. I want to be held , to be told “It is all better now and you are my little girl and I love you.”

Filled with wanting to be free in my heart, for all these things to come into being. I want what I never had, what can never be, a happy childhood. But you can’t make the past over, and what is, simply is.

Wishes rise from deep within, to have a do over….. I want candy every day and I want to live in a world of fresh air and rainbows..

Now very well said. I am very proud of your growth. You now see what I have said years before. All of me the good and bad. Well said and again very proud of you. You blew your teacher away last night. Yes I will not let you go backwards.

Next was Sipa and what follows are my words for her:

As I stand here looking at all the students, the next graduate makes me smile just by saying her name. Sipa began the classes sitting in the background, not saying a word unless you asked her a question. She was a wall flower and one that I felt would give up. Until one night she asked after class if I had some time. She had a desire and because she couldn’t express it she decided to dance about chocolate, I asked “is that really what you want to dance about?” she stated “no” the reply was simple “then don’t.” I am so glad you continued in the classes and finally listened to your heart. Sipa you surprise me each and every time we speak, please enter the sands and dance for all to see.

She danced wonderfully and this one I am going to push as she comes into the advanced classes. I love her dance as it makes me feel what it means to be a submissive every time.

Our fourth grad was unable to get online and we all had our fingers crossed that she would make it I didn’t take her off the list until 10 minutes into the graduation. The words I had for her were as follows:

Following in her fellow graduate’s footsteps, this next graduate came to the classes “hidden” She came covered in tats and even her face was blocked by hair most of the time. As the weeks went by, slowly I began to see a change, less tats and even hairstyles that revealed a beautiful face. In fact the choices in her color of clothing began to brighten. I am please to see all the changes in you Corri and to hear the excitement in your voice when you IM me saying “Rya I got a dance!” Please enter the sands and show me YOU!

She is back and will get the change to show all her dance.

Now to our last graduate. Shaking my head now here is what I had to say about her:

Finally our last graduate, What to say about this one. Tivi has been through dancing ups and downs for a very long time. She has begun to reinvent herself and yes I have pushed harder than she would like at times. The bar I have raised for you and tonight you hold your head high and dance with all the passion that is inside you. Tivi to the sands!!!!!

Oh my what a night for this one. Lets just start by saying this one I have know for years. Many of you don’t like how out spoken she is or how she may do things. One thing she does need to know is this night her fellow classmates were worried when she poofed and didn’t return and then the teacher left to get her. This one although she is a vet in dancing had a meltdown. Hard to believe right? but she did. The one thing I have always wanted for Tivi is to be herself be it so completely that even if others see cracks so what they are part of what make you YOU. I have pushed Tivi in the beginner’s hard why you may ask? She is a vet in dance and is even in the advanced classes. Tivi and I go way back and when she asked to come attend the beginner’s classes yet (she had been in each of them all along the way) again because of a block she was having. I made a promise to myself when I said sure. I wasn’t going to allow her to hide ever again. Dance is a way for Tivi to speak to you and this I knew. I push and push each emote, each dance step, each choice of music. What most of you don’t know Tivi wasn’t allowed to use anything in her vast library of music. As the weeks went by I say her changing and I would listen as she talked about her modeling and slowly in classes it was talked about more than her dancing. Here is what you my Tivi didn’t know your teacher saw through you. I knew you would do a dance I knew you would cross all the T’s and dot all the I’s. I knew the emotes would be perfect, even the music. What I also knew was you were once again building a wall. One I made a promise to myself you were not going to be allowed to do. Why cause I am the teacher! then came the night I gave you a teachers choice. A hard one cause one you didn’t have a clue of how to do. I also knew if my words in class wouldn’t break down that wall this choice would. Am I wrong I stand here today and say no. Because of that choice it broke that wall to pieces and there is no way you can build it back up because it is not in pieces but it turned to dust. What you all don’t see is her tears I do. I hear them I see the slave she is I do see what she so needs each and everyone of you to see. So once I went into “mom mode” on her ass and she told me “fuck you Rya and the horse you rode in on” I made it clear she was going to dance and she was going to dance for her teacher and herself. What I got was something that I will never ever forget and for that she has soared in my book. My words of introducing her were meek as what she did blew me away. I let her take the sands and from there I sat and cried and cried smiling through the tears. Wasn’t until she started dancing that I was to find out she rewrote the entire dance as she sat on that pillow. She worte from her heart for the very first time all of it. Shaking as I watched my student be raw for the very first time in all the years I have known her. So with her permission I post her dance:

“You know, Rya’s probably going to kill me for this… but I think there’s something bigger that needs to be danced about today than what my original dance said. Maybe someday that dance will be danced, but that day is not today.” The battered slave takes a deep breath and lets out a shaking sigh. “You see, a lot of you know… I’m not exactly new to the art of dance… Gorean or otherwise. And so why, exactly, am I here? It’s a bit of a story…”

Spinning around the sands, carefully, steps rhythmic and precisely timed… almost too precisely. That was always the problem. The more she’d danced, the more of a perfectionist she became. The steps had to be right, the music had to be right, the words had to be just so… just so right. “It wasn’t even about the love of dance anymore… it was about the satisfaction of doing it well… which is all well and good, but it is far from the reason I began dancing.”

“And about the time that it became about perfection, constructing a dance became way too difficult to even think about doing, let alone attempt.” A small stumble in the sands, a lurch forward, only to be followed by the spinning of a helpless little girl, unsure of which way to go anymore. “Though I do admit, it was still an enjoyable feeling. I never had to show myself to anyone… I could just hide behind the perfect motions, and the perfect words, and the perfect music. I never had to be Tivi.”

The expression on the girls’ face would fall, as the satisfaction of hiding could only prove to keep her happy for so long. It, along with everything else, is fleeting. “But I was determined… to get back to the heart that started it all… to get back to who I used to be and grown in the love and passion of dance. And so… I sought out Rya…” Whipping around to catch the eyes of her teacher, she grins with a bit of a sadistic streak of her own. “You DID say that, if nothing else, I would dance tonight for YOU…”

“My desire was simple… I wanted my words to mean something… because I possessed this deep-rooted fear that in my striving to be perfect, I had lost the meaning behind my words and everyone had stopped listening.” A hardened glare at her teacher, those nights she wanted to just quit and give up. But much like that time, the slave would continue to dance, bruised, beaten, scarred as she might be… she would continue to dance.

Seemingly out of nowhere, a laugh would spring forth from slightly parted lips. “It wasn’t an easy process to be under Rya’s thumb… let me tell you.” Fingertips hover over her skin, each motion almost like pulling something away. “Rya would not allow me to hide behind the music I knew and loved… she would not allow me to hide behind the perfect, precisely timed sequences… or the words that I took my solace in. She forced me away from all of that…”

allows her eyes to fall to her own form… each scar meaning something… each bruise a symbol… each scratch a dig from another. Her teacher had ripped her out from behind her wall to expose the deepest parts of herself… the parts that she dare not let anyone else see… because those parts are not beautiful. These parts, these bruises, scars, marks, scratches… these are blemishes in a world that demands flawless perfection. It is easier to hide the things that make her human than it is to admit her afflictions and embrace them. But Rya forced her.

blinks away tears, gaze still locked on her teacher as shaking limbs continue… this dance composed of all her heartache and pain, all she’d been through and yet to go through. “And you know, it wasn’t until she forced me to get past those things I hide behind that I truly became a dancer. That I truly learned how to express myself… that I truly became Tivi. It wasn’t until then that Rya could finally look at me and say, ‘I finally saw Tivi!'”

chuckles again and finally tears her eye from her teacher to look out into the crowd: some faces she knew… some she surely did not. “And you know, I fought her all the way. Even tonight… I told her I would not dance. That I no longer believed the words I wrote. And to be fair, I still don’t. That dance was a failed attempt at relaying a story that was not my own… another attempt at hiding… even from my own teacher. And in my last moment of defiance, I refused to dance and told Rya just where she could go… and the horse she rode in on.”

smiles softly to her teacher once more, raising an arm to the skies, seeming to reach for something just above her… something that laid just beyond the grasp of her fingertips… something… more. “Somewhere in my time in this class, my desire changed. I was no longer concerned with whether my words meant anything… and in fact, I even came to terms with the fact that I may very well fail in my attempts to show MYSELF to those I dance for… but my new desire would be my driving force: I want to try.”

finally manages to finish out her dance, collapsing in exhaustion in the sands, forehead pressed deeply into the granules, allowing them to intermingle with raven black locks of hair. Try is what she had done… some would see her for what she is… human being first, slave second… stripped of all that once had hidden her from the people she cared about the most. Some would see, some would not. But all that matters, is that she tried.

A gift that not many will have the honor of seeing. As I sit here and yes I know this blog is long. I want each of them to know they have given me all I asked for and more. They have given me joy. They are so dear to me. They are humans and with so much heart. I am honored that each considers my teachings of value to them. I have done nothing but be a old lady with a heavy foot to knock down walls that they wanted knocked down but didn’t have the strength to do or were to afraid to do. They are all winners they are all UNIQUE. I am blessed to know each and everyone of you. This is your teacher saying I thank you for sharing your worlds with me I am honored you allowed this. I am honored to call you all fellow dancers. I do care what roads you all will travel down and I hope we remain in contact for the rest of my days. Never look back always move forward hold those heads high as you command not only the sands but every thing you do. Thank you my beloved students.

Rya

Power Of The Written Word

Isn’t is funny how words can incite so many? Over the last week my SL has been filled with drama. Yes that ugly word that we fight so hard against. I have been told that to talk the talk is all good and fine but now is the time to walk the walk. I pride myself in being an honest person and being respectful of others and their thoughts and beliefs. I find it amazing in this day and age that so much of those core values are thrown out the window because of “it is only online”. We choose to be in SL and at anytime we can hit the “red” X. All true but it is time to say some of the following: It is my right to be able to log into a program and meet and relax and interact with whom I choose. It is my right to pick what I wish to do in a program. It is my right to have a view on things. It is my right above all else to be treated as a human being.

I treat others the way I wish to be treated, is it to much in this day and age for others to act the same way? Because it is online seems to be the theme of “I can do anything I wish, anyway I want without consequences” Just because you can’t see a person doesn’t mean they are any less real. Most of us have pride in something we do and this brings me to my soapbox rant of the night.

As many of know I teach dance and dance in SL. I love it and I love all my students and yes I mean them all. We don’t always agree on things, but then again, here comes that little word again, we are “human”. I love what each and everyone of them not only bring to my life but to what they bring to each other. I started in Gor and SL back in 2004. As most know Rya isn’t my first avatar. I learned a lot and learned from making mistakes.

I teach that dance is dance in all its forms. It is expression, it is the love you feel when you hear a song and you want to just start dancing, it is the feelings it brings out in you. Each dancer is unique in what he/she does and placing labels on him or her is just boxing them in. Let them be. Let them entertain you with their dance.

No one has the right to say because you are not from a certain type of rp that you can’t dance. Show me and I do mean SHOW me where in any world that is written. I received a notice tonight that really just had me sitting back in my chair going WOW really? The one line that really took me back was:Bring the dance back to Gor. If my memory serves me right, (you can ask any of my students I remember everything) when did it leave and when did it become cut off from the rest of the dance community? I have spent years in SL trying to remind dancers they are unique and if they want to dance to DANCE. It is sad that the community thinks it is only for GOR. I was accused in a pick in a profile of a person that doesn’t even know me and I quote “shame on you” Well I state tonight “shame on the narrow-minded people that think you have a thumb on DANCE” The only people that have that thumb are the ones that dance. I am tired of people being more interested in what something will give them, instead of what they can give to others. I dance because it is a way for me to express myself.  I teach to let others find that in themselves and feel good. But to be accused of teaching people to be liars and cheats? This person doesn’t know me nor did they take the time to get to know me or the time to see what their actions would cause.

You have no idea how much heart and soul goes into a dance and the growing pains one goes through to be able to entertain you and hope that you feel every feeling we go through. How much we want you to enjoy being in the sands with us. Instead you hear words of “stealing” “foul” and my favorite “you didn’t do it right” A lot of fuss has been stirred up in the last few days over an event and to think that it is to be sorted out between the “Free Men and Free Woman” of Gor. Talk about sitting up in the ivory tower.

This part of that notice I spoke of : The dancers. You are divided. Why? You should be sisters with a common bond.  stop the backstabbing and pettiness, the division. come together in the joy of dance.

Instead of calling people to task for their actions you wish to decide how we dance where we dance, when, and what we dance about. It is called ethics and even as dancers we should have them. This isn’t about GOR or empty sims or dancing in taverns. This is about an issue of a few thinking that their actions and comments wouldn’t be given a second thought. No one has the right to hurt another and it is time that we ban together to say enough is enough.

What all this fuss is about is about the event that was held on May 18th in the city of The Soaring Herlit in which two one current and one former of my students danced. What saddened me was that what happened after I left the sim. I was happy that my current student Flame placed second and was so proud of all her hard work. What saddened me was the former student Sage decided to call Flame a thief. The other point is that not only did Sage win the event but she now had to ruin a good dancer’s name by stating facts that were untrue to people that would listen and letting them take action in things they didn’t have all the facts of. Too make matters worse the dance that Sage did I had seen many times in the class I taught. I was hoping to see something new from her but was left with a dance I had seen many times. One in which the class had given her ideas on how to improve and help her. As I told her when she danced it there was a switch and then I would “see” Sage. She asked me to look at the dance and see what she could improve. I teach make it your own feel it I will give advise but in the end it is up to the dancer. I wish she would of done something fresh and new. Too me it was just another event in which she wanted to win and therefore cheat a crowd of people of a good dance. When one of my students pours her heart out and dances the last thing I would ever expect is “she stole my dance”. The only things that may have been the same in any way shape or form was they involved a dead Master and part of song and FYI Sage used two songs mixed together and Flame used one edited by My Master for her. The song was Love you for a thousand years. Sage had the singer and Flame was instrumental. That my friends is the ONLY thing I see the same the title of the song. We have many dances about death. I would say Sage struck out because Flame won but she didn’t so I can only see this as a way to damage a dancer coming up in the dance world.

What did impress me about all the events that followed were the outpour of support for the dancers and trust me many came from teachers and trust me when I say, we teach differently but the bottom line was this: We dance because we have a passion for it no one knows our hearts but ourselves. So really lets look at this for what it is. NOT about it being Gorean and only Gorean and keeping to Gor, what a waste. Police yourselves and remember people that we are all human and it is ok really it is to be happy for others. Don’t make it a mission to hurt others because you can and think it is ok. They do fight back and this is one of those times.

 

As a P.S: you all can thank my students for me learning to blog!

With the help of my faithful flame I started a blog!